I've tried so many times to pound the words out in my head,
to perfect the things I mean
to say words left unsaid
and each time I try I seem to come up short
of the pain I really feel, about the darkness in my core
But you're gone. You're gone. You're gone,
and you ain't ever coming back
So this should come as no surprise that these things never last


I tried to say goodbye
I thought it a thousand times
The screams ring in my head:
"goodbye."
The anger boils my blood
And I'd rather feel the hatred then not feel a thing at all


I told myself I'd cry
I said I'd let it out this time
To signify the mark you left
The imprint on my heart
I'm trying to be the best I can; the man I knew you were
But the strength inside is dwindling
A blessing and a curse


If I could amount to anything in this world
It would be the highest honor to have your approval
To know when you look down on me, you smile and never frown
And say; "my boy has never let me down."


But if I can't be half the man you were
Just send me straight to hell
More rotten wood to burn


I failed to say goodbye
I hope actions speak louder than words
Because I never spoke at all
One more time beating a dead horse
Just knowing what I know now doesn't take away the hurt


Damn my soul
I've tried to hold my own
But all I did was fall
Damn my soul
Just damn it all
You can have what's left of me
Because there's not much left at all


These are the things I think when the world is silent
When the sun sets each night
I find myself alone
To drown in my own pity
And all my darkest fears
No one to stick beside me
I face this all alone


"swing low, sweet chariot."